I keep finding myself stifled by the company of others and then crippled by loneliness when I leave them. I am terrified and I don’t even know of what,
because I have lost e v e r y t h i n g already.
I feel myself, as if in a dream, standing and making my way center stage.
The entire time that I was gone, I could never completely trust someone. And when that goes on for so long, you stop seeing people for people. You see threats or targets. And when I decided to come home, I just didn’t know how to turn that part of me off. Then I walked into your office. You were the first person that I could see as a person.